this place seeems lik some torn down place...a place wher i throw all my damn complain...only come here when i am feelng down..

super down..was troubled enough intially..but my mum add salt into wound...thanks mum!

i asked her for money for my driving lesson tmr morning..and she asked me.."no money liao uh!" haiyaa nt enough money to pay for lesson lah..pay liao jiu realli hv to eat maggee for de whole of next 2 weeks liao lo!~

than she started naggin...say within10days i spent so much..she nv even check out details and start kb-ing...sighh..well...fuck..she expects me to stay home after work everyday...what's in her mind man...why de fuck does she hv to keep her precious daughter @ home?will it help me grow money?or will it help her grow money?if dun go out socialise jiu no friend le..sighh she juz dun understand de no friend theory..if keep tellin friend tt no money go out..at the end of de day jiu no one will ask me out any more le..old ppl mindset difficult to make them understand..

seriously transport fee nb-ing ex...less than a weeek and i spent 20bucks on transport le..seriously horrible...sighh per trip going to work everyday already cost me 1.09...=( guess i cant owe a car next time...i will definately keep complainin about de petrol fee...sigh

money money money=(

but what realli makes me more sad guess its friend...

i guess i am rather processive...i want all my friends' attention..i want all my friends to rmb they hv a friend by de name of chunhui...but things juz go opposite..no one rmbs me and no one giv a damn for me..alright except a few=(

friends who we used to hook on de phone for hours...now barely even 15mins..what's more our convo isnt lik last time wherby is filled w crap and shit..now its about personal favour tt he is askin me..so tt means tt dun need my help jiu wun hear from u...

guess i seriously sucks..going after friendship which is close to 100% will sink one..aso dun wanna cherish those 80% will work well one...sighh...now tt both ship sink..i am de one who is drownin and shouting for help yet no one hears me..or rather..they shut their ear...act as if they dun hear...

i know i cant change hw things is..impression form and its seriously hard to change..anyway it tks two hands to clap...yeah u know what...

guess i hv big ego tooo...or is it tt i duno how i should approach ppl?sigh what's wrong w me...guess i wun be doing anything w de sink friendship...i will juz cherish de remainin unsink one..and be careful about those new ships cuming...

i know i sucks.i always treat ppl lik shit when i get pissed and stuff..that's me..and i know it..i sucks...and i know i seriously sucks..=( i didnt mean to and want to either...sink de damn ship...not juz tt...make situation akward...guess i will needa control myself..more..i swear i will..i must..sigh needa change for good..more patient..more hardworking..less vulgar...more be ther for ppl..more initiative..more big hearted...

sigh..i wish i can change de entire me..i must nt loss temper anymore...i must nt loss anyone anymore...

i must not say tt ther are ships tt are worth to let it sink...i might regret next time..i realli nv know...well somethings juz cant put in word..

sick and tired..money friendship life..fucked up!=( any way i can slp for 24 hrs?sigh..